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	trashflavoured 2009-05-18 04:33 am UTC (link)
	oh dude. what happened? (Reply to this) (Thread)

socalledhipster
2009-05-26 02:07 am UTC (link)

Honestly, the thought's been crossing my mind a lot lately. But what brought this about is that our oldest dog turns 21 this year, and I can't help feeling like we're going to lose her soon. She's so old, you'll never meet a dog older than she is. She's blind in both eyes and completely deaf. All she does all day long is sleep. She gets up to eat, then goes back to sleep.

Lately, she's been pacing around a lot, and it scares me. It breaks my heart to see her walking around in circles like that. I just keep thinking that the house won't be the same without her in it anymore. I've had her since I was 4 years old!

And whenever I think about her dying, I can't help but wonder if my mom is next. And that scares me more than anything. For as much as we yell at each other and fight, she really is my best friend. And if I lost her, I don't know what I'd do.

It all seems to fragile when you look at it like that, doesn't it?

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trashflavoured
2009-05-26 02:18 am UTC (link)

yeah, i dont know what other way there is to look at it though.

sounds like the dog is on the way out - i can't really relate to the idea of losing someone you have had for EVER just because there is no one i have known throughout my life, everyone has been transitory. the only constant has been my little brother (and i actually want to get his name tattooed on me sometime). idk i have never had a stable life, when i was a kid my dad was never around, when i was a teenager and now my mum is never around, friends last for a year at most (99% of the time). idk i lose people all the time. they arent dead but they arent around. it just seems normal to me i guess? idk.

i can see how that idea would be nuts though, and scary if everything around you have had for ever. i know if i lost my brother i would DIE.

does your mum have many health issues? i think my grandma is about that age, your mum must have had you really late, wow. like my parents are about 50 right now. she's had a good run though, 80 is pretty fucking old. does she seem kind of sickly or is she all up & at em?

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