yeah, i dont know what other way there is to look at it though.

sounds like the dog is on the way out - i can't really relate to the idea of losing someone you have had for EVER just because there is no one i have known throughout my life, everyone has been transitory. the only constant has been my little brother (and i actually want to get his name tattooed on me sometime). idk i have never had a stable life, when i was a kid my dad was never around, when i was a teenager and now my mum is never around, friends last for a year at most (99% of the time). idk i lose people all the time. they arent dead but they arent around. it just seems normal to me i guess? idk.

i can see how that idea would be nuts though, and scary if everything around you have had for ever. i know if i lost my brother i would DIE.

does your mum have many health issues? i think my grandma is about that age, your mum must have had you really late, wow. like my parents are about 50 right now. she's had a good run though, 80 is pretty fucking old. does she seem kind of sickly or is she all up & at em?