Honestly, the thought's been crossing my mind a lot lately. But what brought this about is that our oldest dog turns 21 this year, and I can't help feeling like we're going to lose her soon. She's so old, you'll never meet a dog older than she is. She's blind in both eyes and completely deaf. All she does all day long is sleep. She gets up to eat, then goes back to sleep.

Lately, she's been pacing around a lot, and it scares me. It breaks my heart to see her walking around in circles like that. I just keep thinking that the house won't be the same without her in it anymore. I've had her since I was 4 years old!

And whenever I think about her dying, I can't help but wonder if my mom is next. And that scares me more than anything. For as much as we yell at each other and fight, she really is my best friend. And if I lost her, I don't know what I'd do.

It all seems to fragile when you look at it like that, doesn't it?